Question: How does one go about finding what they are meant to do?

I am 24 and have no clue what I am supposed to do about a lot of things right now, but let us focus on a career first. I am a college graduate therefore I should be passing up jobs in order to focus on a career. Fine, if the economy was good and positions were aplenty. Great, if I had any idea of what I wanted to do with my life (career wise).

Most of the people I went to high school with, and went on to finish college, all have found their path. They went to school to be a teacher – they were driven to teach. She is now a paralegal – she knew she wanted to be involved with the law but didn’t want to be a cop or a social worker. She wanted to a psychologist, but found out she liked nursing better. He went on to be a cop because he liked to have authority over people. I went to college and got a business degree because…………..

I have no idea why. I sold myself on that because – hey, its business it can apply to everything and what else was I going to do? My god I am an idiot. For someone like me who thinks of things very black and white, definite answers, no surprises, a plan from point a to b, and no confused opinions on any topic, why did I pick the single most degree/direction with so many undefined paths and answers?

I’ve pushed that question out of my mind for a long time (starting around the time I first enrolled), but time has run out and I need answers. Fuuuuuck me! I have no license and no vehicle; which I guess doesn’t matter since I have no direction to go in (but that is for another day and another post). I am without my own homeless; yes, still freeloading of the 'rents. I am currently jobless to boot which would explain why I am penniless; well not exactly. I have a little over $200 and an amazing supply of paper, paint, and yarn, DVDs, my rings, dog and cat children (that technically do not count since I do not buy their food) and my Little Mermaid treasures. I would trade them all for a little direction, purpose and some answers.

I’ll even throw in my soul too – it’s really a bargain since its never been used.
One thing at a time I guess, I have to fix all this shit since I 'm the one that made this mess. Job/career first. That is if anyone will ever hire me.







Ok, my emo quota for the day has been filled.