This self imposed therapy/negative thought expunging/bitching session is not really having the desired effect I wanted on my disposition. I thought it was enough to get it all out, but maybe I need to share it with someone in order to get some feedback.
Even with the writing, and avoiding of confrontation and arguments, I still catch myself flying off the handle at the littlest things. I mean: Hello crazy person here - tread lightly. I thought by now, with as much time being passed and shit thought and wrote out, I would have a better handle on things.
It may be time to call in Poodle. At least so someone can read and give me some kind of direction/feedback.